I hate to do this in the middle of a week, but it has come to my cosmic attention that I am spreading myself way too thin.
As I’m working toward #pitchwars in September, I think it would be best if I took a break until October 1st.
Thank you in advance for your understanding.
Don’t forget to be kind to yourself in the meantime.
P.S. I know, I know. I said this time would be different and I wouldn’t let you guys down. I’m sorry.
P.P.S. Like really sorry.
Over the weekend, I got a pretty bad sunburn. And it’s the time of year, at least in North America, for almost everyone to get one.
It’s awful – your skin is painful and you get the chills because your body is radiating heat.
Once someone sees you with a sunburn, they know instinctively that feeling of pain and uncomfortableness.
But what about people who carry around pain all day, every day, that people can’t see or don’t know how to relate to?
Sunburn may be painful, but it is really nothing when compared to the battles we fight everyday on the inside.
Be kind. Everyone is dealing with sunburn…on their soul.
Listen, I’ve been there. Waiting for results from all my hard work. Hoping to see a yes or a pound lost.
But have you looked at a plant lately?
When they grow a new leaf, it is small. If you don’t look closely, you might miss it. And then it grows, a little each day, until it’s fully formed.
Remember, you are a growing thing, and you grow in the same way as plants.
A little at a time, but beautifully.
I made a playlist this evening. I used to make all kinds of playlists all the time, and I would burn them to CDs and then drive around and listen to them, singing along.
So, it felt good, even though I hadn’t done it in awhile. Even though I lost track of time. Even though I didn’t get started on all the chores and responsibilities that I should have been doing while I was making it.
And sometimes, just sometimes, you need to do things because you want to do them. If you think about it, everyone just does what someone else tells them they have to do, all day long. They rarely do things that they want to do. For the hell of it.
So, do things for the hell of it, once in awhile. Make a playlist and jam out.
I’ll be right there with you.
When I say, “be productive” what do you think of?
When I say it, I think of that Thursday that I cleaned and vacuumed my whole house after work. Or when I spent quarantine writing a book I’ve had in my head for years.
What I don’t think of is this past weekend where I mostly stayed on the couch to watch Hamilton to my heart’s content.
But no matter what you think of, I’m just here to tell you that it’s okay. It’s okay to experience productivity in spurts or waves. Not everyone is the Energizer Bunny, revving up to take chores down.
And if you can’t rest until everything is taken care of, that’s okay too.
All I’m saying is it’s okay to be you, at whatever energy level feels right.
Today wasn’t a shining moment in my history.
I made an error, and I got really mad at myself for making it.
But the thing is, I already felt bad about the error. And then, on top of that, I was angry about making it.
But this is like when someone kicks when you’re down. Or beating a dead horse. Or insert your own violent metaphor here.
It doesn’t do anything to pile on the blame on yourself when you already feel bad. It actually hurts the situation because then you’ll feel like you can’t do anything right and you become a self-fulfilling prophecy.
Take a deep breath. Learn from your mistakes. And move on.
Oh, and having a really supportive partner doesn’t hurt things either.
Never is a hard word to swallow or say.
But I can guarantee you this one thing: you’ll never be as pretty as the super model selling things to you.
No matter what you buy, no matter what you try.
And I want you to sit in that pain for a minute… and then realize that you’re not going to look like that super model because you are too busy looking like you.
And what a wonderful thing that is.
So, be yourself, above all else. You can still do it with the make-up, dress, bra, workout routine, that you found online.
But be you while you are doing it.