I don’t know how you’re feeling. I don’t know who needs to hear this. And I don’t know how to make things right.
But if you, like me, are at a loss today: of understanding, of confidence, of words. Then I will speak for you:
You are enough.
You are not alone.
It’s okay to be scared of the future.
It’s okay to be angry and upset.
It’s okay to emote and not hide.
It’s okay not to feel anything at all.
Like I said, I don’t know what you’re feeling at this time. But I’m here to tell anyone, that feeling everything at once is okay. You’ve got a lot going on, and your plate is full. We have a lot going on, and our plate is full. So, drink deeply of your emotions and take one mouthful at a time.
I usually get on my soap box on Thursday’s.
And I’m happy to say today is no different.
I just wanted to tell you that you are enough, in whatever you want to be enough in. You’re just that amount of extra.
You’re kind enough, smart enough, pretty enough, brave enough to do what you want to do.
But you’re also hard on yourself enough, alone enough, unhealthy enough to do something about it all. You don’t have to hit rock bottom in order to get to the top, your life is not a slingshot. You don’t have to be pulled back so hard, have so much tension, that you’re barely able to move before you get launched into a new phase of your life.
You can ease into it. One toe at a time into the deep end of the swimming pool. And actually, you owe it to yourself to do that. Start making small changes. Because then you can get used to the water temperature. And you can get used to your new life. And you can discover yourself again.
You already have what it takes to change your life for the better. The only thing you need is to accept it. That your new life will be enough.
I wasn’t going to post tonight.
And as is the case with all kinds of excuses, they just seem to multiply.
I’ve been really busy and…
You know, it was just an average day and I didn’t think…
Well…does anyone even READ this???
You see? I had more than enough reasons not to post. And yet, here we are.
But do you know what I realized? I could just get away with it. I could get away with not posting. I could do something else instead, and a handful of people would notice, but they would understand. Or they would get over it. It’s certainly not the end of the world if one more post doesn’t get published on this blog.
And yet it is. Because do you know what happens once you tell yourself that it’s okay that you don’t do something? You start to not do other things. And you break your promises to yourself. And you stop holding yourself as a responsible member of this organization called life. Like, I’m not going to the gym tonight. And then, I’m not going to the gym this month. And finally, I’ve cancelled my gym membership for the rest of the year.
And sure, okay. I may be suffering from slippery slope syndrome (SSS), but the name of the blog isn’t Bailey Sometimes Monthly. It’s Bailey Dailey. And I’ll admit it, not every thing I post is a gem (okay, I’m sugar coating things). But you have to be prepared to go out there and get what you want. And you absolutely have to be tenacious in your pursuit of it. Allowing yourself to not work as hard as you were going to simply defeats you before you can even start.
So, go do that thing you’ve been talking about and be fulfilled. I’ll be here, posting alongside you.